I spent less than five minutes working on my painting that I showed from yesterday. I just couldn't handle it. My hands shake so badly, I'm afraid I'll mess it up.
I hate days like this. I hate being like this. And I hate most of all being alone with it. I don't have anyone to share this with so it ends up here. Then I feel bad for being a whiner. And round and round it goes.
I'm going to bed. Maybe tomorrow when I wake up the pain will be bearable. Maybe tomorrow when I wake up I'll have the energy to move. Maybe tomorrow when I wake up I'll be strong enough to pretend that everything is alright.
love & blessings
~*~
7 comments:
I will be sending loving, positive, and healing thoughts to you this evening, tonight and tomorrow. I am sorry for your pain, and I am sorry you have to go through it alone. I don't think you are a whiner. It's your blog, and you get to talk about your life. If things are going badly, you get to vent. What do you have? I have Fibromyalgia, and have bad days, but I don't think my pain is ever as bad as you are describing.... :-(
I hope that sleep will be healing for you and you wake feeling better. Chronic pain is such a hard thing to live with. I too am sending healing thoughts to you.
So sorry you are in pain. I had a tremendous fibro flare yesterday so I know exactly how you feel. I pushed myself to go to school because I hate missing my Holistic Healing class, but by the time I got there I fell right into my chair. Don't ever think of yourself as a whiner. We have to let it out and for me, writing has always been the first step to healing. Feel better soon.
Mary
You are not alone, Laura. If anything, you and I have just realized how very much alike we are in our chronic depression - even if that doesn't really help... Please don't feel bad for sharing. I know exactly what you mean, but we are here for each other, in good and bad. Some days all we can do is complain, other days we are better at pretending. I hope at least your physical pain will lessen soon.
Still thinking of you and hoping you are doing better, Laura. I woke up in the middle of the night and thought of you, and sent out a prayer for you.
I do not have the same thing, but I have had various frustrating illnesses and anxiety, and i know that alone feeling! Remember you are not the only one suffering from this illness! People are also thinking of you! I wish I could help although I know I cannot! Believe me you are inspiring@
You are not whining! We are here for you! Much love! I pray things get better!
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