09 November 2012

back around again...

I feel like I'm riding a roller coaster again.  It's been more years than I care to think about that I've been on a real roller coaster.  But my emotions have always been of the up and down variety.  This week, they seem to be sliding down.  I guess the euphoria of my adventure has worn off and it is back to the same old stuff.  Same feelings, same places, same routines.

I've taken down my Halloween decor and left up the autumn.  It's just too early for winter holidays, yet.  I did put together a cute little lighted tree that I purchased after the holidays last year.  There were two in the pack and one will go outside my front door eventually.  For now, the one by my ancestor altar will do.  That and working on this scarf is all I've had the energy to do. 

There are dishes that need to be scrubbed, floors to sweep, laundry to wash and the last of the tomatoes to put up.  Homework that needs to be completed for an online art course I signed up for.  But all I can seem to do is curl up on the sofa, knit a few stitches and cry at old episodes of The Walton's. 

I wish I could hold onto the feelings I had while I was away.  The feelings I had while meeting new people and experiencing new things.  I know part of this is that I've reached that point where I can't fight off the headaches, can't pretend they aren't there.   Part of it is amazement.  There has been more death in the last 7 weeks than I have ever seen at once.  10 people.  Ten people that I either knew well or knew a member of their family.  It is overwhelming to me right now.  Maybe getting my mojo back has made me a little more susceptible to emotion.  I don't know.

Tomorrow I'm supposed to take a ride to Lynchburg to watch my cousin in a play.  Now there is a funeral to consider.  I don't know which I'll be doing, but I'll be doing something other than sitting on this couch.

I hope you are doing well and I promise to finish the tale of my adventure soon.

love & blessings

06 November 2012

I've missed so much...

I missed Vanessa's Halloween Party.  I missed Halloween.  I missed All Saints Day, All Soul's Day and Dia de los Muertos.  I feel like I've missed so much!  Oh, but what I found...

 (the Natural Bridge - in Virginia - an amazing force of nature millions and millions of years old)

 (ghosts of the past-if you look closely at the above photo, you might be surprised by what you see)
  (a little Tolkien carved in stone  - I literally stumbled on to this, walked past it twice before i saw it)

 I took a giant leap outside of my comfort zone.  I met new, wonderful, fantabulous people and one lovely lady whose blog I've read for years and have wanted to meet in person.  I ate delicious, healthy, organic food.  I learned to create things I have never created before.  It. Was. Perfect! 

I have so much to share with you about my trip.  And I will, soon, I promise.  I'm getting settled back in after getting home 3 days later than planned.  I'm trying not to lose my creative mojo or my good mood.  I have so, so many more pictures to share.  I'm thinking of making a power point of the trip.  (Do people even do that anymore?)  :-)

I found so very much on this trip.  From the moment I signed up back in February, I began to find things.  But the most important thing I found - was myself.  My happy, creative, inspired, lovely self. 

How have you been?

love & blessings