07 August 2010

time to say goodbye

i've been in tears for about the past 12 hours...i realized last night that the time has come...i have to let my beastie boy go... i can see the pain in his eyes, i watch as he stumbles and falls and spends 10 minutes just trying to stand upright and then is frozen in fear of falling again...

i can't take it anymore...he doesn't deserve to suffer so i won't make him...now all i have to do is figure out how to say goodbye in the few hours we have left together...

blessings
~*~

11 comments:

faerwillow said...

~laura...i am beyond words at this moment...my heart is heavy feeling your pain and saddness and sorrow...my thoughts are with you...i am ever so sorry...my father always told me it is never goodbye buttill we meet again...blessings dear little lady~

D.Suplicki said...

Oh Laura, my heart aches for you. Your story reminds me of when I said goodbye to my furry friend on Christmas eve. It is never easy, even when we know it's for the best. I am sorry for your pain and for the passing of your loved one. Blessings and much love to you.

Draven said...

I know this is not an easy time, just know that he will be out of pain and at peace and you gave him a happy loving home... Big HUGS for you to help get you through this...

Celia said...

My heart is heavy for you....I have recently lost both of my puppies...I had to put one of them to sleep because she was suffering in a very similar way yours is....and a week later my other puppy died of a broken heart. It is such a sad and hard time.....but I believe our furry loved ones are waiting for us over the rainbow......all of them playing together waiting to see us so that they can drop a ball at our feet to throw once again.

Rue said...

I am so incredibly sorry for what you have to go through. I remember having to let go of my girl too when she could no longer walk without pain.

His spirit will be running through fields - pain free.

Hugs and blessings to you.

VintageSage said...

Oh Laura....my heart is crying out for you and your fur baby. :(((( I'm so sorry...it's so hard. I've been there too many times myself and it never gets easier. Sometimes I wish they would just go in their sleep so I wouldn't have to do the deed. My fourteen year old Mocha kitty is having issues and have had issues for the past year and a half. Several times I thought for sure it was time and she keeps bouncing back. I know when the time comes it will be so hard. I feel for you...and know what you are feeling. Just know that you have given him a WONDERFUL life and he so appreciates it. xoxoxo Lots of love and hugs..and we are there with you in spirit.

Patricia said...

I'm so so sorry and know how hard this decision is for you to have to make. I do believe you will meet up with Beastie again one day and he will thank you for all your love, care and kindness. Your bond will not be broken by the end of his physical realm. Blessings to you both.

laoi gaul~williams /I\ said...

oh laura i am so sorry, i am sitting here in tears as i read these comments knowing what you are going through.
it will be eight months ago tomorrow we had to let our cody go~the pain goes but the sadness will always be with us~but we have our pup who was born eight months ago today to help us through.

i will be thinking of you
xoxoxooxox

Elizabeth Rhiannon said...

Hi Laura, I'm sorry I'm a late on the reply as I've been away. You are a very decent person to put an end to the suffering of a loved one. I know it doesn't take the pain away of those of you left behind but know that you brought love and no doubt happiness to his life. Blessings to you and your loved ones.

Karen said...

Oh Laura, I'm so so sorry. I have been where you are and I know how tough it is. I will keep you both in my thoughts.

Abi said...

Oh Laura, I am sorry. Sending you one hell of a big cyber space hug.XX