trying... to work
trying... to smile
trying... to not be sad and depressed all the time
trying... to cope with the stress of the holidays
trying... to stand the loneliness
i really don't like this time of year. someone asked the other day what my favorite part of the holidays was and i couldn't think of a single thing. now, days later, i've realized the only thing i really like about this time of year is the lights. so many pretty lights all over.
i've tried to get in the spirit of the season, but i keep getting knocked back out. car trouble has taken the last of my savings this weekend. i'm struggling to get enough money to make it through the rest of the month. i'm supposed to make cupcakes for a work luncheon this week, and i don't have the money to purchase the ingredients...how sad is that?
i've been pretty quiet around here because i haven't had much to say. i still don't, it seems.