22 May 2009

feeling blue

I'm feeling a little blue this week. It seems as the week progresses, the blue-er I feel.

Tomorrow is my birthday.

I will be 40 years old.

I don't feel 40.

I don't want to be 40.

Tonight I have dinner with my dad and step-mum. Tomorrow with my mum.

Every time someone has a birthday at work, people bring a cake or bagels or doughnuts.

No one brought anything this morning.

No one even said "Happy Birthday".

As much as I don't want to celebrate my birthday or even have one, you know what I would like more than anything?

A surprise birthday party.

I've never had a surprise party before.

I've been to many, hosted a few...

There has never been one thrown for me.

I would like one... just once.

Sorry to be so morose and self-pitying...



I just needed to get it out of my system.

~*~

4 comments:

JoAnn ( Scene Through My Eyes) said...

SURPRISE! Were you surprised????? I have a cake and some ice cream - even some candles - and some juice - oh and whipped cream if you'd like. Oh and look at all those friends popping up from behind the couch - and those over behind the door - oooh and those that came late - surprise surprise surprise!!! And everyone brought gifts - big gift - little tiny sparkly gifts - gifts in bags and gifts in boxes - ribbons and bows and pretty tissue paper. Here, sit in the queen's chair - it is so pretty with gold and silver - and ohhh look out - here comes the glitter - all over you - don't eat it. LOL Now we sing - well, maybe we better just think about singing - don't want to scare the folks next door. And blow out the candles - 40 - hurray - every last one - now you get your wish - think hard - what is your biggest wish - oh you say a surprise birthday party - well - you got your wish. SURPRISE!!!

Dracenea said...

It's after midnight where I'm at. Happy Birthday, Laura!

Sorry to hear that your work people suck but look at what Pieceful Afternoon did above. What a fabulous party!

Enjoy some time in the garden tomorrow, if you can.

Sara said...

Well, I certainly hope that you have a wonderful birthday - which I believe is today (Saturday!)

Take care!! And, good wishes!!!

Manic Witch said...

I've never had a surprise party either. :(