yes and no and not quite...

greetings and salutations lovelies...

yep, i'm still here.  honestly, time just keeps vanishing!  

by the time i get to the computer each day or whatever day i can get to the computer, i fall asleep before i can get to the blog.

anyhoo...

how are you out there in bloglandia?  i haven't been around to visit and i feel bad about that.  i do want to get around and catch up with everyone.  i'll keep working on finding my full-bodied yeses and taking the nos or not quites out and hopefully that will give me opportunities to get online more often.

i've spent the last almost month (month? geez!) working in the garden, continuing what seems like the never-ending process of cleaning, clearing and organizing everything i own, making new friends and starting a new project in the neighborhood.  i'll tell you about that last thing another time.

a little peek at the first real garden harvest of the season.  lots of herbs - chives, marjoram, wedgewood thyme and english thyme, oregano and tulsi, a couple of tiny red and green peppers that were ready to pick, the first two cayenne peppers of the season and buried underneath, the first tomato and a few jalapenos.  the jalapenos are stunning to me, as they are from the pot of pepper plants i kept alive in the dining room over the winter.  the plants are doing so well!  

one thing is that i've been getting out in the garden super early due to the photo above.  that heat is insane.  the sun touches my skin and i swear it feels like it catches fire.  if i remember correctly, on this particular day, i'd had to spend the morning in the next town for my monthly infusion...

yes, this is me that morning having my infusion.  it wasn't too bad at 7am when i left to go to the hospital.  the meds always drain me of every bit of energy and i have to drive myself home (about 30minute drive), so it is kind of rough.  once i arrive home i'm done in and pretty much just sleep or vegetate with a book or show or my art journal.  anything i don't have to exert energy or brain power for.

that particular day, i was able to stay in the cool a/c of my little home. yay.

anyhoo.  y'all...i have so much i want to share.  i really need to figure out how to get here more.  how to get posts typed up and ready to go and get photos taken and edited and such without it taking 3 or 4 hours at a time.  

how do y'all work that out?  do you have a system?  a schedule?  because of never knowing where my pain level and energy level is going to be at any given moment, schedules don't work so well for me. at least they haven't in the past.  maybe i should revisit it, from a different viewpoint.

hmmm.

alright.  i'm outta here.

i hope you are all doing the best you can out there.  i know the world is crazy, but we have to keep our hope that we can create the world we want where we treat all people equally, and all the other things that need to change.

i'll be back, soon's i can.

love & kisses & magical wishes...

~*~

 

time for auntie camp...

how's it goin, my lovelies?

i'm having a weird day to what i predict to be a very weird and unusual week.  this past week i started doing a nightly winddown ritual to try to help me get a better night of sleep and rest.  the reason is for the past month or so, i'll end up wide awake until 1 or 2 (sometimes 4 am) reading or watching crap tv) and then wake up at 5:59am just before my alarm goes off at 6.  it's really taken a toll on me and i need to fing a regular good sleep pattern.

hence, the winddown ritural.  i'll turn off all devices at 9pm, no food or drink except h20 after 8pm. and i get in bed to sleep at 10:30pm. btwn 9 and 10:30, i work on cleaning out files or cleaning up different areas around the house, sorting.  the other night i folded and put away laundry.  no "input" just "output".  which means... i can't read before bed which has been my go-to for my entire life!!  i've noticed in the few days i've followed that routine, i did sleep better and felt the teenseyist, weeniest, tinyest bit better in the mornings.  well, last night, i blew it. i didn't eat dinner until about 3 to 3 1/2 hours after normal (8:15-8:30ish), then got so wrapped up in the book i read on my kindle until 10:30.  then i just went to bed.

this morning i woke feeling like i'd been hit and run over by an armored truck carrying 10 megaton bombs and hauling a half dozen trucks behind it just like that.  and for the next 6 nights i'll be sharing my bed. ugh...

so yeah...not starting great.  i've had some nausea meds and luckily (knocking on wood) have not had the gate to levels 8-10 of migrainelandia open and swallow me whole.  thank the goddesses and gods for that. 

i think i mentioned in my last post that i would have company this coming week?  well...he arrived this morning. 

meet my just turned 1year old nephew

(the nephew napping whilst i type up this post)

we are scheduled to delve into the depths of heat hell here starting tomorrow (yes, i know it gets hotter in other places, but it is all relative to where you live and your life experiences, isn't it?) and the week is to be in the high 90's to 100, with heat indexes to at least 110+. and with humidity so thick the air is like breathing chuncky soup.  my nephew and i will be staying in as much as possible.  we will have to walk twice a day, but for the most part, we'll be chilling right here in the a/c.

it's been so long, i've forgotten what it is like to live with someone else in the house. and i've already found a couple of things i've got to move and put somewhere else or he'll delve into it like crazy.  i'm feeling a lot out of sorts as i can't let anything happen to him. so i'm feeling more stress than i have in 15 years (back when i was working).

i know we'll be fine.  i'm just so unused to keeping my eyes peeled for them, i feel like i need to know where he is and what he's doing every second.  but...

look at those eyes!

those eyes...they remind me of my beastie boy.

my beastie boy - Dylan at Yule 2007

i figure this week, between having the nephew and looking after the kitties (with litter box duty, even though i was told not to worry about the litter boxes) i'll know whether or not i'd be able to handle having a pet again.

this seems to be his favorite location to hang out...

which was also, dylan's favorite place to hang out.  that paw on my arm says, "rub my belly, auntie!" and is so cute!

i suspect i'll spend most of the week just like that last photo.  maybe i can get some good movie watching and maybe some reading time in.  he's not a walker, i've been told.  i was really looking forward to going for walks with him early in the morning, but apparently if you try, you pretty much have to carry him or drag him along. haha.

anyhoo... i suppose that last photo is where i'll be all week.  but i'll get back when i can.

hope you have a great week. if it is super hellaciously hot in your area, do your best to stay cool, keep fighting the good fight, find some good trouble and be safe! 

love & kisses & magical wishes...

~*~ 

ps... here's the link to today MFTA if you're interested...

blindly, madly...

wait...what is that i spy? could it be? behind the clouds? is that blue sky? and...yes, yes it is!  and...and...the SUN!  it has been days and days since i've seen the sun and i am very happy it is here.

 

i rushed out to the garden to see how things had fared.  poor mother of tomatoes.  they love her so much, they are swooping and swirling around her.  (i've NEVER seen so many little tomatoes in my garden In My LIFE)

 look at those babies! so cute! i can't wait to nosh on them...

the hosta is thriving, droopy blooms and all.  this plant i brought from the mountain house and stuck in a pot, hmmm...maybe 12 or 13 years ago?  a long, long time.  and it does so well!

 

 everything was so green and blooming madly that i just had to take a little twirl in my old/new flouncy dress.  i found it in the back of my closet a day or so ago and tried it on and it fit! yay!

so...this has been my day, except for a serious migraine attack that sent me back to my bed.  it took me 10 minutes of blindly, madly searching to find my ice pack and it turned out it was right in front of my face.

we're to have a couple of clear hot days this weekend before rain returns on monday.  i'm hoping to set my alarm and get in the garden suuuuper early to pull some weeds before the heat sets in.  i guess i'll have to turn my a/c back on too. :-(

oh well...

how's the weather where you are? (i know...i'm weird!)  any plans for the weekend?

love & magicks

~*~