I started thinking about it prior to my trip to Maryland and decided I would make a mixed media piece to share. I put it out of my mind during my trip and when I returned home, I dived in. I started with a blank canvas (always intimidating) and began adding layers of paint and paper. I spent my first day back working on this piece. When I stopped for the day, I wasn't really happy with where it was heading, so decided to let it sit overnight and come back to it with fresh eyes the next morning.
I worked at it for two and a half days before I accepted that things just weren't coming together. Well, you know what that means. Panic!
Yes, I started freaking out and almost backed out. But...I kept thinking about all the times I've ever committed to something and then backed out at the last minute and I just couldn't do it.
Now we are up to Thursday evening (the day before it is due) and I got nothing.
I spent several hours working on my written submission. I started letting the words come out (and not trying to make them fit, which is where I run into trouble). After a while, I felt like I had something I could work with. I went back over it, tweaking this and that. Changing a few words and looking for things that would make it seem more cohesive (I think that is the word). When I finally stopped, I was not happy. I just didn't think it had the elements it needed. But...I was exhausted and it was due in just a few hours.
So I scheduled the time for it to publish, then went to bed. I was kind of proud of myself for sticking to my commitment, but still worried that it wouldn't "measure up". (Why do we do that to ourselves?)
When I woke the next morning, I checked to make sure it had posted (and it hadn't, of course). I hit the publish button and sent it out into the wide world of the internets. After that the day was busy and I didn't back to my computer for a while.
Saturday morning I was going through my blog feed to catch up on the blogs I'd missed while away for over a week. I landed on Joanna Devoe's Weekly Witch Review and while clicking through her links received such a shock. She had included my Witches in Fiction post as a link. She said such wonderful things, I was so amazed.
Have you ever had one of those surreal moments that just takes your breath and stops time? I swear, this was one of those moments for me. I kept looking at it and then clicking the link thinking there was some sort of a mistake. But...well...
I have to thank you, my readers and visitors here, for all the encouraging and thoughtful comments that I received on that post. I tried to reply to everyone and hope I didn't miss anyone. But if I did, please accept my gratitude. I can't tell you how all those comments lifted my heart.
It's kind of funny actually. I don't believe in coincidence. One of the things that I indulge in when I go on these trips, is a wonderful massage by the owner of the facility. As we are finishing up each of these sessions, she always says, "you should write." I always reply that I'm just not good at that.
See the thing is, I love to tell stories. I have spent my life creating stories in my head. I used to write them down, but a few times friends (or school bullies) found them and made fun of my writing and ideas, and I stopped. I still create them, I just don't record them anywhere, except for a few that just demanded being recorded.
So when I saw the reaction to the story I made up for Witches in Fiction. I was really overwhelmed. And really happy. And really encouraged to maybe, start writing all those stories in my head down somewhere. And that feeling, is all because of YOU! So, thank you, again for giving me hope.
Okay, I'm feeling like this is scattered and really too long, so I'm going to wrap it up. I have some ideas for upcoming blog posts, so hopefully, I'll be here more often.
Has anything amazing happened to you lately? Something that just makes you feel really good? I'd love to hear about it.
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