crashing...

 i don't really have a lot of words today...

i've been in the bad place again and thought maybe sharing some photos from last months beach trip would help a bit.

today is my annual hell day, during my annual hell week of my annual hell month...  sigh...

there is so much happening out there and it terrifies me, so i stay in... in my head, in movies, tv shows and books. 

but...things must get done...adventures await and i have work to do to be ready for them...

my cell phone photos turned out so much better than my dsl ones.  i'm seriously debating if i should even bother to take my dsl camera on my next adventure.  we'll see...

ocean or mountains?  which do you prefer?

i have such a hard time choosing.  i know that when i am in the mountains, i breathe so much easier.  the air feels lighter as it fills my lungs and i feel more at ease.

by the sea, i feel enervated with energy. the sound and sight of the waves crashing, not to mention the feel of them on my skin, soothes my system somehow.

when i was at the beach last month i realized that sunlight is a drain to my energy, but i am energized by moonlight.  maybe i should start gardening under the night sky. :-)

anyhoots... 

moonlight or sunshine? ocean or mountains?  which sings to your soul and fills you with joy?  i'd love to know...

thanks for reading...

love, kisses & magical wishes...

~*~

 

learning to listen...

- wow these past two weeks flew by...

- i came home from a wonderful trip by the sea, but there were complications and a little heartache and it knocked me for a loop

- migraines are bitches and can kiss my ass

- i have a big adventure coming up in a few weeks and i'm finally starting to get myself together so i can be ready

- i've just spent the last 3 hours catching up on my blog feed posts.  i got to the top, hit refresh to see if anything had shown up while i was scrolling and ended up with another long list to sort through. i should have refreshed before i started...

- i'll admit, i'm pretty worried about this upcoming adventure.  mostly because of the current plague situation.  

- i'm learning to listen to my dreams.  night before last i had one that was very vivid and memorable, which used to be the case for all my dreams.  i'm paying attention now and trusting my intuition...

- i'm thinking about joining in with this...

- it is hard, thinking that i've made progress with myself, that i've grown and matured and then to have it all come tumbling down and feel like i'm back to where i was... 

- is it her or is it me?  

- time to get to those things that must be ordered for the adventure.  but, of course, now i have screen fatigue and don't want to spend more time on the computer... oh well... maybe a little now and a little later...

as always, thanks for reading...

love, kisses & magical wishes..

~*~

 

ps...i'm so behind on the tea parties.  i hope to work on visiting everyone today and tomorrow.  thank you for all the visits and kind words...