finding myself...

I've been thinking about this little blog for a while, about why I blog, why I don't blog, what I blog about, do people enjoy reading my blog, am I writing for my readers or for myself, should I be writing for my readers or myself, etc, etc, etc.

This past weekend's tea party post had more reads than probably two years combined.  I've also noticed that I seem to get a lot of reads, but not many comments.  I'm really curious about this.  But I wonder if I should be. 

When I first started blogging, I did it for myself.  I did it as a type of journal writing.  But then I started getting readers and comments and it became fun interacting with people this way.  I know over the past 2-3 years, my posting has really been very minimal.  Mostly it was because of my health situation and how horrible it made me feel.  It hasn't been until recently (well, since last October) that I've learned to adjust to my situation.  When I stopped blogging it was because I felt like all I did was complain and whine and no one wants to read about that, now do they?

I had lost my mojo, lost being able to see the beauty in a sunset, lost being able to relate to and enjoy my favorite things, much less share them here.  So I gave up.  I quit blogging and I quit reading the blogs I love. 

I feel like I'm back now.  I feel like I've been slowly regaining myself and now I'm ready to be here.  I'm ready to take my life back and to share it here.  So, I hope you'll consider coming back too.  I hope to bring some interesting things to this blog in the near future.  Maybe figure out a way to make it more fun for you too.  If you are a follower or regular reader and there is something you'd like me to post about, please let me know.  :-)

I truly appreciate each and every one of you.

blessings
~*~
 

returning to light...

...or maybe the word should be life...returning to life...that's how i feel. i can't believe how long it has been since i have posted here. so much has changed and yet so little. i felt bad for just disappearing, but i didn't really know what to do. i ran out of things to say. i tried to continue reading blogs, but honestly, seeing how much everyone did, how much you all LIVED, it just left me feeling quite useless.

the short story since my last post, is that there has been no improvement in my condition and doesn't appear to have any hope for any. also, i'm now on permanent disability - trying to make ends meet. i think it would be easier if not for all the medical bills each month.

so, here i am, trying to make the best of it...trying to get back to things that i enjoyed. hoping, somehow, i can find the light and follow it back to my life... i guess we'll see how that goes...

blessings
~*~

revisiting my light side...

I've decided to re-open this blog. I am working on it and it may be "under construction" for some time. I love my other blog, but it really represents my 'darker' side and I have been missing having a place to share my 'lighter' side.

So, I'm back here. I will be using both blogs to try to express myself as I need. Hopefully you will enjoy both sides of me. :-)

Blessings,
~*~

Oh no...I've been thinking...

I've been thinking about my old blog. I miss it. I really like the one I have now, but I kind of miss the old one. When I first started it I was hoping to make one of those blogs that was full of interesting information about witchcraft. Somewhere I could post spells, rituals and anything that felt like it belonged. I ended up going off on a tangent somewhere. I guess my biggest problem is there are just too many of 'me'.

Let me explain... I'm a Gemini and anyone who knows anything about astrological signs knows that Gemini is the sign of the twins. Geminis tend to have multiple sides to themselves and I'm no exception. I have more 'sides' than a hexagon. My point is that I don't always feel comfortable expressing them all in the same place. This is probably why I have about 15 different email addresses. I can show my different 'sides' using different emails, etc. Don't get me wrong, I'm not schizophrenic or anything. I have been diagnosed as bi-polar with a chemical imbalance, but these days, who hasn't? Wait...there goes that tangent thing again. :-)

I think I'm going to start posting to the old site again. But I'm going to post with my original intent when I started it. I'm going to try to stick to witch type things. This blog will still be my primary and I will post here all the time. But occasionally I will post things to the old blog. For those of you that didn't find me through that or have forgotten and want to check it out, it can be found at SpiritWitch. If you know me in real life, remember the rule of three.

1. You can read it, but you can't hold anything you find there against me.

2. What you read there or here may or may not be about you, so get over it. (I never use real names, except my own and any initials I use, aren't the actual initials of the people I've written about.)

and last but not least...

3. Don't piss off the Witch!

Blessings,
~*~

A New Year... A New Blog

Welcome to my new blog. In keeping with starting a new year fresh, I decided I was ready to start a new blog. I'm probably going to leave my old one up, but this one is where I'll post. Why do I want to start a new blog? Well, I guess you could say I have decided to come out of the blog closet. :-)

I want to be myself and I've decided I can do that without hiding who I really am in blog land. When I first started blogging, I wasn't sure what I was doing, much less if I wanted to tell the story of who I am and risk it being found by people that know me in real life. So, I hid behind a pseudonym. Now that I've been blogging for a while, I've realized that I don't want to hide anymore. I am proud of who I am and what I like and am ready to share it with the world.

So, if you find my blog and discover that you know me in real life, it is up to you to read on or not. Remember, this is for me, not for you and if you don't like what I have to say, you can stop reading anytime.

In my new blog I'll post about my everyday life, my passions and well, my favorite things. Hopefully you will find something here that makes you laugh, smile or is useful in some way. Thanks for reading and Happy New Year!