auras and vibrating eyeballs...

 

today's ten things...

- waiting until the last minute to start preparing my planner and journal for 2023

- my fridge is so full of food i feel sick looking at it and it has kept me from being able to cook any of it. (although i have nacho meat cooking right now)

- 36+ hours without internet, tv and home phone was 10 times harder than when the power is out?!?

- painting gives me anxiety

- painting makes me happy

- i know, i'm completely contradictory in my thoughts, it's just how my brain works

- self care looks like every other week massages and they are wonderful

- going to the grocery after a massage is NOT a good idea. i don't know if i was dehydrated or what, but by the time i left the store i was almost in full migraine (auras/vibrating eyeballs/etc) and getting stuck in traffic due to an automobile accident is NOT good.

- twinkle lights always make me happy

- disco ball ornaments make me giddy

hope you're having a good week...

love & magicks

~*~  

messengers...

i had visitors this very cold morning...

i heard a clatter on my roof and since i know santa isn't making a trip to my house, thought perhaps a raccoon or something was trying to get into my attic to escape the dropping temperatures.

when i went out i found a committee of vultures on my roof.  there were more than 20.  this is the second time in the last three days i've seen the committee.  (the photo from yesterdays post is of about 40+ scattered through the trees at the end of our street that i took the day before)

when i saw them days ago, i felt like it was a message.  so i guess they really have something to say. since vultures are distinct for cleaning up the mess of death, maybe they are telling me to clean up my mess so that i can make the changes that are needed to transform to the life i want instead of the life i have.

when i posted about them a few days ago on ig, one of my followers suggested that it was a sign that old things are going to be cut out and recycled and i like that idea.  

whatever the message, i'm listening and open to receiving it. 

have you had any messengers visit you recently? do you believe in signs and omens?

i hope you are having a lovely day and for those in the us, please stay warm during this cold front that is across the country.

love & magicks

~*~

 

ps...big hugs and thanks to Deb at SheWhoSeeks for the blogger reader tip.  i switched to bloglovin years ago because my blogger reader had stopped working. i'm happy to be able to use it again.  and it's been interesting going through to see who is still blogging that i followed from all those years ago. :-)  xo

 

trouble with the light...

it's been over a year since i was really here.  i kept meaning to get back here and really wanted to write.  i was caught up in holiday season madness november and december of last year, then on january first in the middle of the first class of a year long course, my computer crashed.

things accumulated to turn 2022 into a really bad year, one that i barely survived.  but, survive i did, and i'm here now and really wanting to be.

i'd planned to restart blogging back at samhain. when that didn't happen i thought solstice would be the perfect time.  i have such trouble with the light, both figurative and literal.  this time when the sunlight is becoming a tad more pronounced seems an excellent time to try to bring a little light back into myself.

so, here i am. 

i have no "plan", no scheme of how often i'll blog, what i'll write about, or anything like that.

i'll just show up when and how i can and i'll be happy with that.  yes?

today is very overcast and rainy, my second favorite type of winter day. the temps are dropping and tomorrow night's low is 8degrees F.  

i've the makings for chili on saturday. tonight i think will be a nachos night, but as i've an online class in an hour, i'll see how i feel after.  

i'm so happy to be back here.  and i so appreciate those who are still here with me.  

oh! that reminds me, i could use a bit of advice on blog readers.  i was using bloglovin but it has been very finicky for the last year or more, it takes days to be able to pull up my feed and sometimes i can't access it for weeks.  i've been trying to move my feed over to wordpress, but i'm having trouble with that one too.  what readers/feeders do you use to keep up with your blog reading.  i'd so appreciate any suggestions.

well...off to prep a snack tray to get me through class.

hope you are all having a wonderful day

love & magicks

~*~
 

 

turning to the light...

 sending you blessings, love and light on this beautiful solstice...

love & magicks

~*~

 

unintentionally sporadic care...

i - this week has been crap...

ii - the cold is coming so the plants have been brought in.  i'm trying some in new places, hoping they will survive my unintentionally sporadic care...

iii - i swear yesterday was monday.  really...i don't know where the last four days went...

iv - therapy this week and it was spent not talking about what i'd gone in thinking i wanted to talk about, but about how small the world is (turns out my therapist was a part of a community i used to be a part of and we know a lot of the same people)...

v - it is THAT time of year again.  the time when nearly every show and commercial and radio station and all of the world is in the "its the most wonderful time of the year", and i'm in 'i f*king hate being alone and just want the world to shut up because it all makes me cry'...

vi - i'm pondering next year's plans.  2021 was the year of art and i have spent it participating in a couple of year long art groups (and i've enjoyed it very much, despite feeling constantly behind).  several months ago i was hit with my word for 2022 - create.  

    when it came to me, i realized that while i have done a lot of art this year, it's always someone else's art.  so for 2022, i want to create my own.  and not just painting/mixed media, but creating everything.  i want to play with clay, metal, wood, baking, cooking, just...create. 

vii - due to my create plan, i'm having trouble deciding if i should re-up for some of the year long art groups.  i've settled my mind on one of them, but the big one i'm just not sure about yet...decisions, decisions...

viii - my numbers have been high, and i can't seem to get a handle on them.  does insulin stop working?  i swear i always feel like i'm playing russian roulette when i eat/bolus. diabetes fatigue is so very real, y'all...

ix - i'm itching to hit the road. i want the ocean and/or the mountains. but...

x - i agreed to fix the turkey meal again this year and i also took on xmas.  however...the turkey plans changed as an attendee to the meal has been to 3 football games in the past week and will attend another one the day before coming to my house.  my plague anxiety is such that i've gone back to last years turkey meal plan (i'll prepare togo dishes for them to take away). we'll have to see what happens for xmas.

well...that's it for now. i hope you're all hanging in there...

thanks for reading...

~*~

 

november greetings

november, already.

october flew by so very quickly.

little projects around the house, lots of arting, and lots of pain.

it slipped by before i could really enjoy it.

but ...

i made the most of it that i could and wrangled a few things to look forward to over the coming year.

i hope you had a wonderful october.  

anyhoots...just a brief note to welcome the new month and say hello, i'm thinking of you...

thanks for visiting

~*~ 

 

all the autumny goodness...

 

happy October wishes to you...

as i'm currently in quarantine, self-imposed - which i will explain later, i can't get out to take pictures of this beautiful autumn first of October day.  so, i dived into my photo archives to find some October pictures for this post.  above we have 2020, 2014 and 2009.

i'd meant to post long past in early september, but the month got away from me.  so much happening and so much to tend to.

i'm hoping to share it all here over the coming weeks.  as well as, bringing some new things to share.

and so it is October... and you know what that means around here.  all the autumny goodness to be delved into.  even if it does still feel like summer here in the south.  my mind is all in for cozy blankets, lighting the fireplace, crunching leaves under my feet and lots of warm soups and stews. and we can't forget the spooky season.  my little witches are all itching to come out of their cupboards and visit for the month.

yesterday, while working in my studio on an art piece, i had the thought that if i go all out with decorating for halloween, i might just leave it up through xmas.

then i discovered that not only will i be hosting thanksgiving, but i'll be taking over the xmas holiday hosting as well. so...halloween will come out, and will have to go up before thanksgiving.

well..that's alright then.

i have a serious craving for pumpkin bread right now and hope to get to that today or tomorrow.

i just wanted to pop in quickly to say hello, welcome October and wish you all a happy autumn season.

i hope to be back very soon.  i have so much to share!

thanks for reading...

love, kisses & magical wishes...

~*~